Out of the mouths of babes…

I have spent months pondering and pontificating this journey of adoption.

My blog posts rarely lack a well-placed modifier or an annoyingly lengthy run-on sentence.  Perhaps you have politely skimmed my 8o0 word posts, wondering all the while when my stream of consciousness writing would morph into rational, logical, succinct thought.

This time I will spare you my sordid thinking and slippery slopes.  This time I have gotten permission from one of my all-time favorite authors to post her profound and simple thoughts regarding adoption.  The words that touched my heart this week are those of my eight-year-old daughter.

Yesterday resembled most any other day in our home.  I stood at the kitchen sink, rinsing thermoses of half eaten lunches.  My budding artist sat at the kitchen table with half a rainforest’s worth of paper in front of her and a jar of colored pencils.

“Mommy,” she said.  “What should I write about?”

“Ummmm, I don’t know. Whatever you want,”  I said, distracted by some mystery goo at the bottom of my son’s lunchbox.

“Well, I want to write a story.  Just give me a title for inspiration.”

“Ummmm, why don’t you write about Halloween or something…”  I muttered half-heartedly.

“Nevermind!” she retorted with a wry smile.  “I have an idea! Don’t look until I’m all finished.”

No problem.  I’ve got plenty of things to keep me occupied.  I’m just counting my blessings that you are finally occupied!

That night, as my husband crawled into bed he wondered aloud about the crinkled papers under his pillow.  Oh! I smiled.  Brynn wrote a book today.  She must have left it for us to find.

Here is the gift we received:

A book with a title that had me at “hello.”

Each chapter covered but one page.  Few words, much heart.

Chapter Two stopped me in my tracks with it’s simple title, “feelings.”

“Here are some of the feelings I have for adopting.  I am very scared to have 2 more siblings.  I am also neverious.  I am sad to have our family change.  My body just feels really excited to get a brother and a sister! 🙂 I will have 1 sister and 2 brothers.  Scared, neverious, sad, and excited.  All those feelings mixed together make the word adoption to me.”

Sweet girl, I couldn’t have said it better myself.

Our file still sits on the desk of an Ethiopian judge.  We wait for her to make the required revision before our agency can try, yet again, to submit our paperwork to the US Embassy to start the journey of obtaining immigration visas for our children.

We are not alone in this unpredictable and lengthy journey of international adoption. Many families find themselves waiting longer than expected half a world away. Waiting to hold our children in our arms on US soil.

Kelel and Seniet have actually been moved back to their original care center in Northern Ethiopia.  This move is certainly not ideal and was definitely not anticipated.  Unfortunately, it was a decision made for the “greater good.”  The orphan situation in Ethiopia is dire as many care centers find themselves unable to feed the children and babies in their care.  Our agency recently accepted 13 new babies due to a neighboring orphange’s food shortage.  Babies clinging to life, needing formula, needing arms to hold them.

Prayers are appreciated.  Prayers are paramount.  Words whispered between my Father and me are my lifeline.  They sustain and encourage us one day at a time.

May the God of the universe hold us all in the palm of his hand, supernaturally weaving our hearts together, creating a tapestry of unconditional love that surpasses any other feeling.

Our story is His story.  An Adoption Story.


  1. Ashley says:

    Wow. I can’t believe Brynn is only 8 & she’s writing like that. She’s good at expressing herself, huh? Bless you guys, oh, bless you! The Lord is faithful & your wait is not in vain. God is working on those little hearts all the while {yours included}. Thanks for sharing.


  2. Holly says:

    I love how you accept her book as a gift, instead of treating it as a time to convince her that she should just be 100% down with all of this. That girl knows what is up – a crazy mix of emotions.


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